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Queen Bee
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Dave and I went to a work banquet Friday night after a really long & already emotional day, meeting commitments, driving all over the county. Dave drove 250 miles that day, home from work, downtown with me, up to the dinner at a cas-ino in north county, home . ..
(Stupid auto mod wouldn't let me write cas-ino without the hyphen or something. Sheesh)
When I came home I couldn’t find my 16 yr. old kitty. She never misses a chance for food and I brought leftovers! She wasn’t there the next morning either. I knew but I wasn’t ready to give up. Dave and I looked under every possible place, even tried to see if the screens to the house foundation, which is raised, were open. But they weren’t. Even my cat loving neighbor joined in.
Now it’s almost 3 days and I am sure she is gone. She was sick. She started getting obviously ill at least a year ago. But my sick pets who had obvious problems needed the vet and I ignored her crying. Animals don’t show their pain if they can help it. I didn’t think of that or blocked it out. I didn’t ignore it, but I thought it was due to a problem she had had with an abscessed tooth and as long as it didn’t break open I thought we were OK. But when I finally took her to the vet 3 months ago, she was diagnosed hyperthyroid and I was given meds for twice a day.
It’s been almost 3 days and though I want to believe otherwise, I know she is gone. Sarah gave me Druid Animal Oracle cards before she died. This morning, I shuffled them and cut them. I don’t have to tell you what card was then on top.
The Cat.
Sometimes, life hands you what you need.
“Cats can observe both this world and the other world. She brings us the ability to observe situations quietly without judgment before making decisions.” She is of course a symbol of sensuality. “The cat unites an awareness of the spirit world with a highly developed sensuality.” Cats are also fierce warriors, though mine was simply a Queen, ruling all the other pets and letting the other 3 cats in her life do the prowling, protecting, and pugnacious posturing. (Like my alliteration there?)
Though I still want it to be otherwise, I know she has left us. My desire is to see her, even if she is dead. I would like to bury her here, but that doesn’t seem likely now. If she were to come home, I know she would have to go to her last cat nap because she is old and ill and it is time. Animals know to hide when they are at their most vulnerable. I will miss her, but I also know she is playing and napping with all my animals and animal loving family & friends, who are up there to meet her.
(Stupid auto mod wouldn't let me write cas-ino without the hyphen or something. Sheesh)
When I came home I couldn’t find my 16 yr. old kitty. She never misses a chance for food and I brought leftovers! She wasn’t there the next morning either. I knew but I wasn’t ready to give up. Dave and I looked under every possible place, even tried to see if the screens to the house foundation, which is raised, were open. But they weren’t. Even my cat loving neighbor joined in.
Now it’s almost 3 days and I am sure she is gone. She was sick. She started getting obviously ill at least a year ago. But my sick pets who had obvious problems needed the vet and I ignored her crying. Animals don’t show their pain if they can help it. I didn’t think of that or blocked it out. I didn’t ignore it, but I thought it was due to a problem she had had with an abscessed tooth and as long as it didn’t break open I thought we were OK. But when I finally took her to the vet 3 months ago, she was diagnosed hyperthyroid and I was given meds for twice a day.
It’s been almost 3 days and though I want to believe otherwise, I know she is gone. Sarah gave me Druid Animal Oracle cards before she died. This morning, I shuffled them and cut them. I don’t have to tell you what card was then on top.
The Cat.
Sometimes, life hands you what you need.
“Cats can observe both this world and the other world. She brings us the ability to observe situations quietly without judgment before making decisions.” She is of course a symbol of sensuality. “The cat unites an awareness of the spirit world with a highly developed sensuality.” Cats are also fierce warriors, though mine was simply a Queen, ruling all the other pets and letting the other 3 cats in her life do the prowling, protecting, and pugnacious posturing. (Like my alliteration there?)
Though I still want it to be otherwise, I know she has left us. My desire is to see her, even if she is dead. I would like to bury her here, but that doesn’t seem likely now. If she were to come home, I know she would have to go to her last cat nap because she is old and ill and it is time. Animals know to hide when they are at their most vulnerable. I will miss her, but I also know she is playing and napping with all my animals and animal loving family & friends, who are up there to meet her.
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